Now I don't mean that to sound like a whiney little cry baby, I mean not completely, but sometimes I just wanna. I woke up today, feeling ok, I was feeling like I could conquer the world. I prepared myself for the endless, Happy Mothers Days, they see my face and ask "are you a mother?" and then finally end it with an endearing "next year will be your year". Not that anyone ever, ever means these things to be mean, or hurtful, I do realize that. It's just that Mothers Day for a lady trying to conceive is exactly what Valentines is to a single person, a made up commercial holiday, that reminds you exactly what you don't have. So once I got to church, this morning, after a long prayer on the way, I parked and was greeted at my car by a sweet cart driver who started right off the bat with a "HAPPY MOTHERS DAY", I smiled and said thank you (in my head I was like "Ok God"), because I was ready for it...right. Then I walked in the door to another, hey happy mothers day, again, smile, and nod. Then on to another, and another. I then walked out the door to a sweet little boy trying to hand me a rose for mothers day, who I politely declined. By the time I left work today, I was ready to pull into the nearest grocery store, buy some oreos, mint chocolate chip ice cream and a bunch of milky ways, to enjoy while I went home and deleted everyone on face book that was expecting, or had recently had a baby in the last, oh 10 years. Lol! Don't worry, I didn't do that.
Instead, I said "self, you are thinking of your self and not Him" After all, I have been given a promise, I have been given the choice to choose how I react, and I have been given grace to be forgiven for my thoughts and ill feelings. So I put myself together and stopped thinking of myself and started putting my thoughts where they needed to be. When I finally put my mind back into where it needed to be, God reminded me of Matthew 17:20 He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here and there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." To which I realized, that even on the days that I did not feel like my faith would move a mountain, I still had power ove the enemy and my thoughts, and even on the days when I didn't feel like praising and praying, and more like crying and eating junk, that those were the days it was most important for me to focus on God and focus on the promises I have been given. God hasn't forgotten me, he hasn't left me, and he will never expect me to forge through the tears and bad days alone. So moms to be, I tell you we will make it! Once we realize that God is all we need, that is where we will find peace.
And to all my favorite mommies, and mommies to be, I pray that you were pampered and loved today, and that you enjoyed your babies and held them a little tighter! Happy mothers day, I am truly happy for each of you!
On a lighter note, here's a great picture of me and Momma! Love her! http://instagr.am/p/KlYHn4CeTm/
For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently. Romans 8:24-25
